"Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning." ~ Exodus 20:20
Two days ago, after a long period of contemplating, I offered to perform one little task for a ministry at church. This task is new for me and it would stretch me. John Ortberg said in his video, "It All Goes Back in the Box", that when we try to get out of our comfort zone we expose our strengths and weaknesses. Now I sit in the scary situation of scrutiny. And who is my greatest critic but my own. At this point my weaknesses flood my mind and I see my strengths disappearing. Even as I wait to see if I will be allowed to do it, I feel like I'm now an open target. Deep inside a part of me says I should withdraw my offer; the other side says to stop being an observer and get in the salt mines. I am aware that there are many people who are more capable to do the job and maybe this is not where I should be. If it turns out that someone else should do the job, then I will still have progressed myself by having been forced to look at my own weakness in terms of my attitude and acknowledging that I need to be transformed; to get rid of the things that are between me and God.
Father, your words are so true and they guide me. Help me to obey You with trembling. Teach me not to be afraid of the things of lesser consequence for You are with me.
Born and raised in the Philippines. Attended University of the Philippines and University of Reading, England. Now residing in California with husband and three children - enjoying a God-dependent life.